Jake01273

This was originally a forum post, but put it on notepad so I could share with others. My first love... I was with a girl called Lily for 3 years and a few months until this August, a few of my close riding mates will have probably met her at least once. I really did think she was that person I'd spend the rest of my life with, or a good portion for that matter. Makes me well up a bit writing that, I'm a right wuss haha. I met her in year 10, at school, when I was 14. I had just started GCSE's and went to a different school to do an Engineering Diploma there 2 days a week, I was the class clown and got on pretty well with one lad (still meet

What's this life for? What's this life for? Every day is a fuckin' chore I rwanna close my eyes, And ffall asleep forever, I wanna float in the sky, Like a shimmering feather, Take my hands, baby yeah, Throw me a rope, pull me out Cause I don't belong here, Noo, no, no.. Scream n' shout.. Fuckin' demons holding me.. Twisting me.. Inside a nightmare, Please come save me, you.. Get me outta this hellhole- Be my savior, my angel, Hold me in your arms and Never let me go.. See the stars are shining at night, Yeah, they're looking down upon our sins- our righteous remains, but All the we've been through, it Don't matter when

Me without you I don't know why you need me around, When you have everyone that keeps you safe and sound, I feel like I'm not who you'd want, I look around and everywhere I see, Somethings putting me down, I've loved you more than anyone, But is that enough to keep you strong? I feel like I deserve to be alone, I wasn't meant to be here... Consuming, controlling, Every hope from all my expectations, Being buried alive... Run away, lets all run to the rain, Where I really belong, Teardrops falling from the skies, Bloods dripping down my sides, Pain will be my only cure.. It'll get me out of here. Get me out alone, The jou

Land of Fantasy The story behind these eyes Behind what you can see Is a world of lies And a land of fantasy All that you can see Will soon begin to grow When you search the fantasy You will forget all that you know Look up, into the sky Look up, and see what you can find Look around, don't you be shy Look around, and open up your mind 29/01/10 Jake Deakin

I see things... I wake up in the morning just to think of you Cause when I'm dreaming it doesn't feel so true But when I'm thinking I hear your voice I hear things and I haven't got a choice So I take a step further into the dark And all my senses are trying to bark Trying to stop me going further into this hole So I push them aside grasping at my goal I flail helplessly looking for a path Running in circles- to hear you laugh I'm trying hard, to find a way An antidote, to get you away I look everywhere, praying for the day Where I can hold your hand and run away Run from all the mistakes we made Just take my hand, I'll take y

In the end I counted all the stars I kissed all the flowers I prayed all the time I walked a thousand miles But I never got there I never got to see How I wanted to feel With you in my arms But I'm calling your name Baby it starts the flame Burning deep inside This love i cannot hide Will you ever know This love i tried to show I found your heart on the floor Turned round 'n saw some more Then I tracked you down But you were outta town I counted each step I kissed all the roses Then I really started running I ran a thousand miles I ran for you I'm still going I'm running for you Will I ever get there Cause in the en

I wish... See those birds way up high? You may want to join and fly Hear those birds in the sky? I want to hear their cry Why do I have to be the one With problems and few to rely on? Why do I have to try harder each time When I fall for committing no crime? What have I done to be this way? When Do I rise from this slimy hole? I try everyday but sometimes I fall And I get into trouble for it all If I could only hear what people say Then perhaps there'd be less trouble today When there's a fog outside It reminds me how i feel inside I'm lost in this world, all alone... Which way do I go? Who do I phone? There are very few pe

I just want to be with you I can't stop thinking of you For in every thought you'd appear And I can't help it but every time I think of you I'd long for you to be near... If something's wrong, I'll come a-running I'll come a-running to you For I'd give anything, I'd give anything Just to be with you... And If I had to say, if I had to say That something touches me deep inside It's you smile, your smile blew me away Baby, if you'd just come here, I'd tell you "I have nothing to hide" I don't want to miss a moment, 'Cause each step I take I fall deeper I'm falling deeper, I'm falling in love with you I wanna keep falling, 'Caus

Anything for you... When you start running I'll start running too When everybody makes you feel down And the whole world is against you I'll try to help lift that sorrowful frown When you start crying I'll start crying too When everything puts you in pain And nobody you know can help you I'll try to cease all your pain I can't do everything But I'd do anything for you I can't do anything Except be in love with you 01/12/09 Jake Deakin

Dad In every crack, in every hole Hidden deep inside is a broken soul I open the door to the shed and see All the bikes that belong to Dad and me Everybody thinks we're crazy, me 'n him Ploughin' through the muddy hills keeps me slim On a Sunday morn. my Dad rises He says "Up for a rise?" and when I say no... The rest of the day is dim, 'cos I got Dad low... I really wished I did, but I didn't and now its all too late! 16/11/09 Jake Deakin